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20 July 2006 @ 02:58 pm

Not totally giving up on livejournal, but giving this a try. Or using both, never know, catch me here though!
14 July 2006 @ 10:16 pm
Totally got a new puppy today!!!! My mom, Matt, and I went to the Wisconsin Humane SOciety this afternoon and came home with who was then refered to as Ruth, a 15lb, 3 month old, tan shepard mix. And she is soooooo cute! After hours of debating and mind-farts, my family agreed on the name "Dixie" for her. Dixie Ruth of course. She was from a litter of six born in Tennessee and somehow made their way up here, so we felt it was apropriate to give her a name with some southern roots. If only I knew how to put a picture on this thing. But yay! Puppies are cute!
13 July 2006 @ 11:27 pm
I went into work today even though I really didn't need to. I wasn't on the schedule, but do the fact that I was a bit unhappy with the only 4 hours I was scheduled for this week, I figured I'd just show up and see what happens. Adam, my manager kind of gave me a weird look when I got there, but then put me to work. I figured he wouldn't care. So yay! Another six hours on my paycheck.

My family wants to get a puppy, well, everyone except for dad, but his opinion really doesn't matter in situations like this. We want to adopt one from the humane society, and wihumane.org has some damn cute ones, and they update their website every 20 minutes! Its amazing how fast the puppies go at that place. I hope we get one soon, of course, I've yet to even think about replacing my last dog, my baby. Awww. But still....puppies are fun.

We might go on another amazing IKEA adventure tomorrow, I hope so. God I love that place.

Otherwise, things are good. Its still in the making, but I kind of introduced a new idea to my sorority, a project kind of deal. But so far, I think its really taking on and I'm excited to see the results. Its fun to get ideas sometimes.

Some weird show is on tv right now, and I don't really feel like changing the channel. I'm going to bed. NIght!
12 July 2006 @ 08:56 pm
They spend your entire lifetime trying to teach you right from wrong, watching you grow, how to succeed, how to dream, how to accomplish, how to love, how to.......

But sometimes, parents can be such a dissapointment. Its hard to teach something when you don't believe in it yourself.

Sometimes I just feel like i"m in such a pit in this place, a deep hole that I can't move in, or get out of, but it sucks me in deeper the longer I'm in it, and eventually, I'll give up and just accept that I'm there.

Every day my dreams change for my future, and sometimes it worries me that the people who should be supporting me the most, won't. Instead, they'll secretly wish otherwise, because they too were once a dreamer, but because of one decision, one choice, one action, everything changed.

As the kid, the child, the one they helped grow, how do decide to do something for yourself? or give up something for them?

Ahhhhh, just another one of those I want to scream moments. But theres no where to go where I won't be heard, and no where to go to make it matter.
07 July 2006 @ 03:28 am
Yeah....I went to the midnight opening of Pirates of the Carribean. And if you think thats a weird thing for me to do....I'm sorry, but we can't be friends anymore. The movie is amazing, just as amazing as the first, and what an ending! Johnny Depp is hot, Orlando Bloom is hot, and I wish I was Keira Knitley (spell check?). Anyways, my critics rating gives it a "hell yes I love this movie", like my opinion means anything. But I recommend it. Its now almost 3:30 in the morning and this is my life. Go me.
01 July 2006 @ 11:36 pm
Tonights wedding:

It was his second marriage, her first. All of us working were kind of guessing she had spent her whole life being Daddy's little princess. The room was an explosion of pink. Pink table clothes, pint flowers, pink bows on the chairs, pink flowers on the cake, pink ribbons around the cocktail tables, and even pink table numbers.

Another one of those "people have way too much fucking money" kind of deals. But like most other events like this, not long into it was the room filled with a lot of middle age drunken people shaking their booty's on the dancefloor.

I came home and summed up my day for my mom as I munched on a delicious sugar cookie the neighbor made for us. "All of us working were pretty much in agreance that the groom had absolutly no say in the planning of their reception, or just really didn't care, I don't know which would be worse."

She told me to shut up, the girl was a bride and instead of critisizing, couldn't I just think she was beautiful?

......now where's the fun in that?
01 July 2006 @ 02:29 am
It's 2:30 in the morning and I'm finally home from work. Not at the elaborate "everyone does everything over the top" job, but the "more like normal people" job. It was a wedding, and lets just say, one of the more downscaled of weddings I've seen in quite some time.

I'm used to the elaborate weddings that cost the brides parents an arm and two legs just to bring their daughter the uttermost happiness on that one special day that will in most cases result in a divorce 5-10 years down the road. She wants the purple flowers flown in from Tahiti, thats what she gets.

This wedding, at first, I kind of walked around with the word "chinsy" in the back of my mind. A member of the brides family was walking around setting up the self made centerpieces (candles in a fishbowl with those shiny rock glass marble things), and decorating the head tables (ribbon and silk flowers). And I'm walking around thinking, when are the florists going to be here?

But I suppose now, isn't that how it used to be? How it kind of should be? Weddings with more family participation, such as making centerpieces? They should be more like parties of celebration of two families, instead of a flaunting of money and imagination. As I thought about it more and looked past the less elaborate decorations, this couple spent money where they found more important (nice flowers, beautiful cake), and they did it themselves, said they had saved their money and everything going on that night, was coming out of their pockets. Good for them.

Myself and some of the other workers somehow got into a conversation about renting venues downtown for events such as your wedding, and I found out the going rate for the art museum just to use the place will cost you $15,000. Ridiculous.

But here it is 2:30 and instead of feeling gratified of a night of working and income, I can't help but think that usually when I'm up this late, I'm usually drunk, or with friends, and got a little worried. Going into hospitality your pretty much guarantied an anything but ordinary schedule. Weekends, don't exist to you. Holidays, you're lucky if you get off. Nights off? forget it. I don't want to turn into one of those adults who looses touch with all friends as soon as the graduation cap comes off. And I'm sick of these summers of having no one to relate too. There's got to be more to these three months than working and trying to save up some money, cuz face it, I'm not even really getting to do that so far with what I've been making.

And the whole time I've been typing this, some damn bug has been crawling around on my computer screen and its really starting to piss me off!

So I'm off to bed now, I have to leave for work again in less than 12 hours. Bye!
Current Music: KT Tunstall- Another place to fall
28 June 2006 @ 10:28 pm
As the subject line goes....Hmmm....let's see.

I'm working two different jobs this summer. As a banquet server with two different catering companies. Which I'm by the way still trying to decide if thats a good thing. In most industries its usually frowned upon to work for "competing" companies. But money's money. I like one a lot better than the other, but the problem with both is, no set schedule, and even when you are scheduled, no idea on how many hours you'll actually be able to get.

A bothersome event that happened on my first real work day at one of the companies still kind of bothers me today. At this place, theres a lot of storage sheds that we have to gather supplies for whatever event we're doing that day. The shed I happened to be standing outside of at the time was a disposable shed (paper plates, plastic forks, that kind of crap), there were actually quite a few of us out there. It was kind of weird really, when we all noticed a little mouse just kind of hanging out outside the shed. It wasn't really causing any trouble really, just kind of sitting there. It was like a little baby one too, not really gross like a mouse should be, but tiny, not neccessarily cute, but tiny. None of us really knew what to do, just kind of in a daze. Like, you know its not supposed to be there, but really, what do you do about it. I guess the woman handing us supplies in the shed wasn't quite understanding what we were all gazing at and got fed up with it, came out of the shed, huffed, and stomped her foot down right on top of it!!! The whole group was silent but pretty much all stood there with expressions on their faces like "what the fuck?!?" Needless to say, when she picked up her foot, the tiny not quite as gross as a mouse should be little rodent......not looking so good. Yuck!

So since I dont' get hours to work until the end of the week, I have to find ways in the beginning of the week of entertaining myself. Today the kid (my brother) and I spent the day together having lunch and went to go see "Click", it was actually a rather good movie. I enjoyed it.

So I've just been hanging out lately trying to find ways of making my life more routine and actually accomplishing things. My biggest accomplishment lately....keeping my checkbook balanced. Trust me....HUGE ACCOMPLISHMENT!!!

Catch ya'll later,
Current Music: none- watching family guy
16 June 2006 @ 11:47 pm
So I look back, and it shows that March 29 was my last entry. Wow.......march 29th. That was a long time ago.

My mind is just kind of boggled right now by all the possiblities of things to say, for instance, I could talk about the end of school, the heartbreaks I've had, the drunken nights I've survived, and all the rather uninteresting stories of every night thats occured since then. Or.......I could even rant on for five paragraphs about amazing nothing-ness. But wow...

I have to work in the morning. Just making sure you all knew I didn't fall of the face of the earth and checking here to make sure none of you did either.

29 March 2006 @ 06:20 pm
Reader's Digest format:

I found out today theres a good chance I'll be able to graduate in December! I'm so freaking psyched!

And yesturday, the DVD of the final season of my favorite tv show ever came out, and my mommy bought it! So I'm excited about that.

I interviewed for the chicago internship, but don't think I"m going to go in that direction, wouldn't make much sense.

On that note....there have far too many good moments happening to me lately, so now, I've got that little shakey feeling that at anytime now, something is going to happen.

Now, I sit in a class that I found out I don't actually need to be taking....that bites! But whatever, I'm in a good mood.
Current Music: chit chat of people in class